Hello, everyone! I originally thought that I wasn’t going to post today, but I decided to post after all, because I love you all so much. :-3
This is my first attempt at free verse poetry. Tell me what you all think! 🙂
Edit: Meaning and inspiration for this poem now up. 🙂 Read here!
Mocked Guardian
Screaming out voiceless into the night
Pleading my freedom behind glass walls
No light shall shine upon my hopes
And dreams all die away
None can hear my voice again
Trapped behind these invisible walls
Unseen, unfelt by any hands
My grace fades like the twilight away
Unheard as in a genie vase
With pain I call; shadows grip about me
Dragging me down into depths unknown
Where back behind oblivious minds
Their shadows call away, mocking, mocking
With voices none but I can hear.
They trapped me here behind their minds
A guardian who no longer walks free
To guard from evils the heedless ones
Who say that evils do not exist. Liars!
Before they locked me away, they mocked me
And doomed their world to spin away
Leaderless, helpless, into excoriating black,
Since they deny that black exists.
None shall follow now.
I can not protect that future until the past is reconciled.
I lie trapped behind the walls of hate
Of those who say they do not hate.
They have numbed their minds; they do not see
What lies before them, what fate they set themselves,
What doom they forged for their children’s children,
Covered over with the glamour of countless lies,
Cemented with the blood of countless children.
And here I will lie, screaming unheard, unfelt,
Beyond the reach of sound, unseen,
A light cast by no shadow here, invisible,
Unknown, unthought, wishing to be unmade
Until at last the walls crumble down, leaving me free,
Free, to dissolve away at last, free, to throw myself on empty space,
Free to discorporate into bodiless light, seek oblivion,
And pray once more to cast myself, alone, unnamed, unbodied
Stripped of all that once I thought was me
Naked before the Throne and empty, alone,
At last of all these illusions free
Between my self and eternity
The truth: A servant of the Divine.
The lie, nonexistence. I cast myself on God’s mercy,
And He shall hear and succor me.
Yes, there is a story behind this. But I want to hear all your guesses first. Maybe I’ll post tomorrow and tell you what the inspiration was if you make lots of good guesses today. No, that was not a bribe. Oh, who am I kidding, it totally was. 😛
Cheerio! See you all tomorrow! 😛
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I’m guessing Obi-Wan’s involved somewhere.
Actually… no. Not really. It was… a bit more general than that. 😉
Oh.
🙂
It was a…life experience?
Not quite. At least, no single experience. 🙂
I need more hints, dadblameit!
Okay, it’s a reference to something all too common today. 😉
Jedi Order? Is it Wars related, or Rowan related, for a start?
Actually, it’s an accumulation of common experiences.
Okay, then. Is that the answer?
Not quite. 😛 I can’t post now and say what it is, though. I should really be in bed at the moment, actually. I’m only up in order to remedy my current lack of hydration. 😛
Dadblameit then! I’ll wait.
I’ll have to post it later today.
I don’t have time this morning. :-S
Beautiful! I love it. 😉
I’m glad you liked it. But you didn’t guess where I got the inspiration from *pouts adorably* 😛
Aw, I’m not sure. Your dreams of marrying Obi-wan? 😀 Okay, maybe just inspired by all your different fangirling?
I very strongly doubt Erin has any dreams of the sort. Given that she actually quite likes Obi-Wan and doesn’t like upsetting him, and given his… rather emphatic comments on the topic, and all.
Haha, true. But in your mind, you can change people. 😉
*head desk*
Thanks, Rosalie. But yeah… no crush. I’m not one of those people who swoons every time a new Lancelot comes striding down their path.
Didn’t think so, anyway.
🙂 Thanks.
…. marrying Obi-Wan?! *stares at you weird and edges away from you* That’s just… weird. I think he’s awesome, but no crush. The only person I’ve ever had a crush on was the boy who was Joseph in a Nativity play, and that was mostly a joke, since I was Mary.
Okay, I’ll take it back. 😉
*groans* Now you’re just teasing me.
Maayyybeee… Maybe not… 😀
*shakes head* You’re terrible. 😛
Aww, no I’m not!!!!!! I’m sorry. 😛
It’s okay… but I get enough from the associate pastor. 😛 Not about Obi-Wan, but about… *blushes* When it comes to the game where you can only make one answer to any question in any given round, he has no mercy. 😛 One time somebody asked another girl who she wanted to marry, and she said, “A man,” so then the assoc. pastor said, “what was that noise last night?” *shakes head* Awk-ward! But everyone thought it was funny.
XD Well, you know, your gravatar name… you gave yourself obi-wan’s last name… 😉 I hate it when people tease me about guys, especially when we’re just friends.
*head desk* The roleplaying character is Obi-Wan’s grand-niece. However, the name started off with a Jedi starring in a story before the Republic. It made for an interesting situation in the Jedi Apprentice era. 😉
😀 All right, I’ll take your word for it…
It is true. The only reason I haven’t posted the first Erin’s story is because it’s unfinished and still has a long way to go. Not to mention it needs major polishing up. It was among my very first fanfics.
Aw, that’s cool! I’m doing a roleplay with a friend of mine, which I think was my second fanfic, and I’m doing a Sherlock Holmes fanfic on my own. Which I haven’t worked on in a while. I’m pretty new to the fanfic world. 😉
😀 Roleplay? Sherlock roleplaying? Where!? 😛
I wrote a Sherlock fanfic… it was a BBC version fic, and it’s titled “How to Save A Life” on my blog. 😉
Fanfic is fun. Unfortunately, I haven’t been able to write much recently. I’ve been more interested in my novels. 🙂
Same here, although my friend and I are still doing the roleplay. It started out just in the world of the Avengers, but just recently, other characters have started to crop up, like Doctor Who, Holmes, The White Witch from Narnia and others. 😉
If it’s online, I would love to join in. 🙂
Aw, it’s through email. We should do an online one together!!! That would be sooo much fun! Except I have no idea how to do it online.
Yeah… Well, most people do it via forum or chatroom. (The chatroom variety is generally the most fun and is very addictive!)
Ah. Never tried either of those. I’ve never really done that much internet socializing, except on my blog, so… yeah. Not much experience.
🙂 I normally hang out on the Nanowrimo website, and there are a couple of different chatrooms online where we hang out as well. 🙂 You don’t need an account on those, just a nickname.
The only message board I’ve been on is one on Behind the Name. We could start one on there! 😀
Hmmm… I don’t have the know-how, but it might work. 🙂
If you go to message boards, and then writing room, we could start one there. The only thing is that it’s not private, so other people could see it and add in.
Ahhh… I see. 🙂 That’s the problem with most anonymous user allowing chatrooms.
You know, we could always go back and forth with posting parts on our blogs, or start a new blog that we both can post on.
Hmmm… I don’t know. But yes, that might make for a fun roleplay. We take turns blogging with what happens to each of us, or to make a move. ;-D
It would be fun! But what would be our setting….
Mmmm… I don’t know… maybe a fantasy world… could we RP as any character that wasn’t taken? Or agree which characters we would each get to play as?
Yeah. We could do a combination of tons of books and movies, so we don’t have to find one we’re both knowledgeable about. 😉
X-D That sounds great! It might also be interesting to explore worlds we’ve not entered before as characters just entering them!
Do you think we might invite other users, too, over time???
Yeah, that would be cool!!!! 😀 Do you want to start developing characters for ourselves?
Sounds good! 🙂 Can we use characters from fandoms as well as original characters? 🙂
I think that’s good. I may want to include Sherlock’s cousin from one of my fanfics, and maybe the girls from our Avengers roleplay.
X-D Yay! So I can bring along some of my Star Wars OCs and maybe the protagonist from one of my novels on occasion? 🙂
Sure! Hehe, and I can bring in Aila from my new fanfic!!!! 😀 I’m not sure if you’ll like her or not. She’s not necessarily a good character. She’d probably be in that Jaguar commercial with Tom Hiddleston: “It’s good to be bad.” and “Why do people think Brits make good villains?”
Cool! 😀 Sounds like fun. 😉 😛 And Rowan, Margery and Obi-Wan would probably retort, “For the same reason they think Scots make good heroes!” 😛
😀 Wait, Scots make good heroes? 😀 I use an awful lot of redheads.
That’s probably the real reason why. 😛 *gives Merida a fiendish grin*
But all of my dark-haired heroes!!! They’re amazing!!!! 😀
True. 😛 Which is one for the Latin races. ;-P
Oh, okay, as long as you don’t say that my heroes aren’t awesome… 😀
No way! 😀 I’m sure they’re complete awesomesauce! X-D
Well… I wouldn’t go that far. Some of them aren’t that great.
Mmmm… takes practice. 😛
Yep, you got that right. You’d think after writing at least 20 short stories and three novellas I’d have plenty of practice. 😉
😛 My heroes tend to be a bit predictable. I need to work on that…
Mine tend to be too perfect. Or too changeable.
Mine tend to have quick tempers, and tend to be intelligent and unsure of themselves. (I really should write someone who’s cocksure and falls on his/her face sometime.)
Haha, in the new series I’m working on, one of the main characters is pretty smart but really insecure, and then there’s another one who’s totally arrogant and prideful but yes, he gets the humble pie. 😉
X-D Those are the most fun.
Yep. They are. 😉
😛
I like it, but I have no idea where the inspiration came from.
Join the club.
:p
Heehee. >:-D
😛 I’ll probably make a short post on the inspiration later today.
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