For all you Loki fans out there…
FYI, I still can’t think Loki would ever be “nice.” I don’t know if he totally lacks empathy, but I can’t imagine him being a total good guy. An antihero, maybe. But not a good guy.
Insubstantial
Not knowing who or what you are, or what you are meant to do or become, is a nightmare with no backdoor and no awakening.
Loki knows that far better than anyone. He has never had a purpose, unlike Thor, and even when he believed that he was indeed Odin’s son he still didn’t know what he was meant to do.
If he was to say that it was Odin, or Thor, or Laufey that made him like this, it would be a lie. Because there is only one person who made him this way. And that person was Loki, no one’s son, no one’s brother, the one with no real substance of his own. Everything that Loki appeared to be was masks.
He wears and sheds those masks, those names, like snakeskin, as it pleases him, and his pleasure is aimless. He is mischievous and deceptive, but not evil. Or at least, he doesn’t mean to be. How can one be evil without a purpose?
And how could one be truly good without direction?
He hates himself, sometimes. All the time, really. It’s not exactly something that he can escape. It’s not something he can turn off. He can’t lose himself in anything. He envies his brother… anyone, really. Anyone who is oblivious to their own heroism, or to the harm they’ve done.
Ignorance may destroy them all in the end, but ignorance truly is bliss.
Every time Loki clashes with his brother or his brother’s human friends, he truly envies them. So innocent. Naïve maybe, but knowledge and power equal torment.
He envies them their ability to connect with people. Yet another thing he has never been able to do. Even the self-proclaimed narcissist still has people he lets in close, who he actually cares about.
In another life, he might have been one of them. Rather than being the enemy, he might have worn the colors of an Avenger.
As it is, he is doomed to self-loathing.
He is as cold as ice.
He doesn’t like the feeling.
Insubstantial
28 Friday Nov 2014
Posted in Tales of a Wandering Bard
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Ah, I looove it!!! 😀 It’s so perfect. I definitely agree with you, Loki’s not the type to become an awesome hero, he’ll still have his scars and that twinge of mischief.
Thanks! 🙂 And yeah, that sounds like Loki.
-_- I just had a life-ruining idea for an AU. With Steve ending up mentoring Loki. Which is totally insane, so I’m never writing it… 😛
Oh… goodness… I would feel really, really bad for Steve. But haha, I’m organizing a roleplay with some friends, and we’re doing kids of the Avengers, and apparently Loki’s a good guy now…
Sounds like fun. 😛 (What’s your ship regarding Natasha? Seems like she’s dating around ALL the guys now… -_- Except Tony. PEPPERONY FOR THE WIN! wait, did I just type that out loud?! -_-)
XD It is, so far. We’re sticking with Clintasha, but I wanted so desperately to pair her with Bucky. *sigh* That would be perfect. But yeah, right now Bucky’s got two teenage kids, one of whom hates him.
Type that out loud… XD I think I’m gonna have to use that…
Ahhhh… I like Clintasha. (Why is Bucky/Natasha perfect???)
OH, man… That’s awkward… Does it have Coulson? Who is officially ALIVE! 😀
Yup. My inner fangirl was showing for a moment. 😛 And I’m glad you liked it. X-D
Oh, wait, I forgot about spoilers… Nm. 😉
It does!!!! I was talking to one of the girls today and she’s all like “I had no idea who he was so I looked him up, and I remembered him… but didn’t he die?” Me: “Um…”
My inner fangirl has been showing all day… *Sigh*
😛
*sigh* I know the feeling… 😛
I want to go watch Sherlock…..
XD
That would be nice. I have to go to a movie night for school, though.
That’s only sad depending on the movie…
“All the President’s Men.” About the Watergate scandal, and starring Robert Redford, who looks like a craggier Bradley James, and Dustin Hoffman before he was Shifu. X-P
That doesn’t sound too bad. 😛
It wasn’t. It was slow building, but pretty good.
That’s good! 🙂
Thursday, we’re watching “Good Night and Good Luck.” Not sure what it’s about yet. ;-P
Me neither. 😉
😛 Maybe I’ll review them when I’m done?
You should! 😉
😛 I will if I have time.
Loki!!!!! I have an unhealthy obsession with Tom Hiddleston and his dance moves…
That is an amazing poem!!!!!
…and his dance moves?! 0_0 *is afraid*
Thanks! 🙂
He dances beautifully! Have you even seen him dance? Hey, don’t knock it til you’ve seen it, lady!
Okay… 0_0 Still, Loki dancing… I’m not disgusted. Just frightened… 0_0
Haha, it’s really awesome!
I haven’t seen it… 0_0 I saw the clip where he came to the Comic Con dressed AS Loki. And the comment that Cap (wait, sorry… Chris Evans) made was so funny. X-P
Scuse me. Loki is not only somebody’s son and brother (Farbauti and Byleistr, respectively) but also he’s married to Sigyn (go read the myth of Balder and the mistletoe again) and has at most conservative count six children. Seven if you count Sleipnir which some don’t on the grounds of total weirdness.
What? I’m into Norse myths!
This is pretty much purely from the Avengers (which is totally different and doesn’t really seem to follow the Norse myths. At all.), and in that movie, he seems pretty bitter about his parentage. He does say “I am Loki, of Asgard,” but I’m surprised that he does say the “of Asgard” bit since he’s been in voluntary exile and still pretty miffed about it. Conclusion: He doesn’t believe in any of his parentage or heritage (whether Frost Giant or Asgardian) and wears names only to shed them like snakeskin…
Loki is so blah. I would have kicked him down the main shaft of the Death Star.
He’s a more interesting villain than Sidious is, though! If only they hadn’t short-changed him in “Thor”…
Sidious is way cooler! I’m hoping he’ll be back in Star Wars VII.
Hmph. Sidious is a flat character. Does he even HAVE a motivation for world domination?! Loki–there is a bit more to him than there is to Sidi-face.
Yes, I think he does. The Senate betrayed him.
Nyah. 😛
He was the one who was undermining the Senate the entire time!
That’s because they were so corrupt!
Which is reason to FIX the Senate, not destroy it. -_-
Oh, I’m thinking you have a point…I bet Sid just didn’t think about it!
That’s his problem–not thinking about the important things.
He didn’t have time. It was hard training to become so powerful.
Yeah, but if it limits his thinking, then something’s wrong.
You always bring up good points…
Thank you. But honestly, Sidious is disgusting and that’s all there is to it, really.
*holds ears*
Have I just committed sacrilege by Sith standards? *grins wickedly*
You did! I’ll kill him one day, and take over myself!
Interesting…
I think Sidious and Dooku were the best villains of Star Wars, of all time. Sidious because he was the most manipulative, Dooku because he was actually potentially interesting.
I agree. I was always a bit disappointed that Dooku submitted to Palpacreep…his character should have fought it!
*coughcough* There are fanfics out there for that. Best dark-ish Obi-Wan I’ve ever read… though really, the author made a couple of errors as to people’s characters in places.
Tell VJ he’s off his nut – Sids is dead. And actually him turning up in 7 couldn’t make a bad show one iota better or worse. As I put it: there is no new SW movie and never will be. There is a new Disney movie.
Yeah…. Sidious is definitely deader than a doornail that then went boom. 😛 And imagine how poorly they could handle it! I wouldn’t like to see their version of Sidious… *shudders* That would be offensive.
We never saw Sid die though…
Um, yes we did. He fell down a reactor shaft and there was a big blue explosion. I don’t think he could’ve survived crashing into the reactor core. Ewww. SPLAT. And blue radiation all over the place.
I love this. You totally nailed it. And yes, I can’t imagine him reformed. Coincidentally, this sounds uncannily like a description of one of my story’s characters
Hmmm… 😉 Great minds think alike. 😛
And thanks! I can imagine him sort-of an ally to the good guys, but he’s more like Sherlock’s “I may be on the side of the angels, but don’t imagine for a moment that I am one of them”. He’s only allied to them on his own terms and for his own reasons.